"When you feel heartache, please quit the game."

 

The words turned up in my mind suddenly yesterday. I agree with it to some degree. But sometimes, life is completely different from the game, you cannot quit it as you wish. Life is going on going on, it never stops to wait for anybody. Sometimes, you just feel you cannot help yourself falling it even you know you have made a big mistake.

 

OK, if cannot stop falling, just let it go. The result must be turned up sooner or later. Maybe it is better just wait for it.

 

Yesterday evening, I just heard my uncle have some financing troubles recently, he have to make his apartment hypothecated to the bank to apply a loan. I was very surprised, some time ago, he had his own business, drived his BMW. But now, it is said he have to work for two companies to earn more money, his working time is so long, from 8:00 to midnight 2:00. How tired he is! Sigh! hope he can throw off the troubles asap. After all, he is no longer young as before.

今天早上把刚到的销样都挂起来。

 

挂着挂着，就突然想起，刚进公司那会儿，整天没什么事做，经常被叫去拍拍照，挂挂衣服，整理整理资料什么的。那时候也总抱怨，为什么要叫我们去做这些事。但现在回忆起来，居然还觉得蛮幸福的，至少过程是轻松的吧，可以顺便聊聊天，开开玩笑啊。

 

还有那时候出差，也觉得很幸福啊。终于可以不要在公司里无所事事的待着了。不管有车没车，一路上总可以看看风景，到了工厂，看着别人做事，很快就转到另一家工厂，或者再做车回公司，再一路看着风景回来。脑子里想着很多很多自己的事情，想着生活原来是这样的。

插一篇中文的~因为实在不知道用英语要怎么写，而且居然是连名字怎么写都不知道~

 

很久以前看的片了，印象最深的是JCW他家MM自杀的那一幕。恩，觉得很唯美而且还很有戏剧性，背景音乐也很柔和。MM就象平时睡着了一样，安静的躺在床上，甚至脸上还带着笑，让人忍不住亲吻。可是亲吻后才发现爱的人已经没有温度，没有温度……掀开被角，才发现MM割腕了，被子里全是血。JCW象疯了似的抱着她冲进医院，来不及了，什么都来不及了……医生告诉他，MM已经有BB了，JCW很后悔，抱头痛哭，整天在家里以泪洗面。想起电影刚开始时，JCW对LCW说：“在一起X年好象就为了证明两个人不适合在一起……”突然觉得很凄凉，在一起这么多年了，就算一条狗都应该有感情了吧，何况是两个人！可是，居然几年来的共同生活就是为了证明两个人的不合适……当然，结局是很有戏剧性的，大大出乎我的预料，MM怀的BB不是JCW的，而她自杀同样不是为了JCW。呵呵，看到后面才为自己前面的多愁善感感到可笑。

 

可是，爱情，真的就只是这样吗？在一起几年以后，两个人互相厌倦，互相背叛，然后分开？有没有例外，这个例外会不会是我？

我不知道啊，想想觉得真可怕。

 

影片总体来说还不错吧。觉得越来越喜欢XJL了。以前看《将爱情进行到底》的时候，是很鄙视她的，觉得她做作，而且优柔寡断，明明要结婚了，还跑回来找YZ，还伤害了RT。可是，不知道为什么，后来就慢慢喜欢上她了，觉得她有种知性美，做人低调（尽管最近有很多绯闻），而且笑容很纯真。恩，现在再看《爱》，慢慢也觉得可以理解她了，爱一个人，真的会很多不舍，就算不能在一起，也会忍不住再回来看一下，就算不为什么，为了纪念逝去的爱情也好。

 

对近期看过的电影喜恶的排序如下：《云水谣》>《伤城》>《黄金甲》>《墨攻》>《夜宴》。还是最喜欢《云水谣》，觉得很感人，里面的爱情真的好伟大。建议大家都去看看哦~

 

不知道为什么，今晚又很想听《死了都要爱》，还是很喜欢很喜欢呢~

 

把每天当成是末日来相爱
一分一秒都美到泪水掉下来
不理会别人是看好或看坏
只要你勇敢跟我来
爱不用刻意安排
凭感觉去亲吻相拥就会很愉快
享受现在别一开怀就怕受伤害
许多奇迹我们相信才会存在

死了都要爱

不淋漓尽致不痛快
感情多深只有这样才足够表白

死了都要爱
不哭到微笑不痛快
宇宙毁灭心还在
穷途末路都要爱
不极度浪漫不痛快
发会雪白土会掩埋
思念不腐坏
到绝路都要爱
不天荒地老不痛快
不怕热爱变火海
爱到沸腾才精采

 

恩，对哦，奇迹只有相信才会存在哦。所以，我要相信，要相信……真是不知道到底要有多深的感情，才会到死了都要爱呢~

 

还有，LGH的《彩虹天堂》也很不错哦~很喜欢里面那句“两个人相守直到白发苍苍”。恩，要赶紧来器找个和我相守到白发仓仓的人

 

PS：刚边听《彩虹天堂》，边看了几个月来写的日志和众MM们的留言，突然觉得很感动，可以感受到写每一篇日志的那时那刻自己的心情。其实写日志真的挺好的，就象开博时说的，是成长的一种见证吧~

God! Really too full. I couldn't breath deeply, couldn't laugh loudly, even I couldn't bow down my body. It is all because I have too much for supper.

Tonight I went to JU DI BARBECUE with Echo and Liz after work. When we came to JU DI, I was very very hungry. So after the waitress began to make the food for us, I cannot stop eating I found there is so much space in my stomach, I almost eat everything no matter barbecue nor hot pot. I haven't realized it was enough for me until I found I cannot eat anything more even drink a little tea more. I decided to leave the place at once, since I knew if kept staying here, I wouldn't stop myself from eating. It is really terrible! To be honest, at that time, I cannot keep sitting, it made me sick. What I need most is walking, walking around to lighten the pressure to my stomach.

It seems that now I need to have more and more food than before. But it is so strange why I am not getting fatter? Am I ill? Is that the same illness as Princess Diana? Maybe I have to control the appetite to keep healthy.

As I wrote last time, I will try to be more responsible in the new year.

 

But it is really very surprised when Tina mentioned the subject "responsibility" to me in her office. I forgot what she said exactly, but what she meant was "since you are the only child in your family, so sometimes you don't have enough responsiblity in work."

 

I don't know if there is any connection between these two things. However, it is really a big problem for me now. I have realized this problem gradually since I bagan to work. Several months ago, I really felt too tired of the work. I found there is too much pressure for me, I cannot bear it. Busy life is OK, but pressure makes me breathless, I hate such life style. When I talked with Aron, I found she had the same situation. I guess that is mainly because we never took responsibility for ourselves. When we were in school, we didn't care much about our study and future as others. Money isn't taken into consideration to some degree either. Our motto was "Enjoy yourself every day." What we thought was where to go to enjoy ourselves after class. Now we are working, we have to take responsibility not only for ourselves but also for others, such as parents, customers, factories and so on. Maybe we are still not willing to, but we have to and others also will force you to. When you feel responsibility, you feel pressure. That is the way things go.

 

Tina also mentioned "Study" yesterday. Right, I agree, everyone has to study all life long, since everything chages every day. If you don't study, you will be out sooner or later. For me, I study from work and life more or less, but maybe it is a little bit slow. That is my weakness too, I am beconging lazy. I will speed up from now on.

 

Anyway, realize the problems is a good beginning of the coming new year. It forces me to improve myself.

 

In a word, I will become more positive and active to my life.

I decide, from now on, I will write my dairy in English.

 

Just an idea. Even I don't know why I thought about this. The idea turn up in my mind suddenly. And I guess maybe this is a good way to pratise my poor English.

 

When I was a middle school student, I always believed my English was good enough. I did welll in most English text and sometimes I got high achievement. But now, on my point, it is mainly because of my good luck. I still remember one day, when we had English class, I talked with my classmate when the teacher taught us the word "mercy". My teacher saw me talking with others very happily, so he ask me to stand up and translate a sentence which had the word "mercy" into Chinese. Till now, I don't know how to say this sentence, but at that time, when I stood up, I anwer "自从新中国成立后，中国农民靠天吃饭的日子结束了", this is because I hear the word "PRC build up, Chinese, peasant, mercy the god". The teacher was very surprise, maybe he tought I cannot answer this question then he would punish me. I was very complacent, thought I am clever and lucky enough.

 

I hate reciting new words, I don't think I have a good memory. When I prepared for CET-4, CET-6 and BEC Vantage, I did more exercise before having the text, and tried to remember the words which appeared in the paper frequently. My text result told me maybe it is a good way preparing English text. So I tell everyone, please don't recite the words if you don't like, it is useless. Just do more exercise, that would be enough.

 

Hate reciting new words makes me poor English basis, since I don't have enough words to express myself. I have to say every sentence in easy and short words. But when I have abundant emotions, I cannot express in such short sentence. What a pity! And when I began to work in Trend, I found my English is becoming poorer and poorer. I have almost the same sentence and meanings in very mail and every phone. I forgot more and more English knowledge. Once I think about this, I am going crazy.

 

I have to change the situation in the new year. I have to improve.

 

God bless! My poor English! I really have to improve it whatever listening, reading and speaking.

 

That is also my plan for new year!

2007的第一天~

 

很幸福的睡到了10点多~醒来~因为不用上班，所以可以先在沙发上呆坐5分钟~然后起身拔手机充电器，顺便看了一眼手机，居然有N多的短信和一个未接来电，都是关于元旦祝福的，一一回复谢谢，赶紧取消静音设置。刷牙，洗脸~泡一壶热茶，坐在沙发下的小矮凳上，晒着太阳，很温暖，摊开几天前的报纸，眯着眼随意的翻着，阳光耀眼~

 

这两天都是说好陪老爸老妈的~

其实好象也没什么特别的地方去。老爸老妈喜欢去爬山，而我懒得进行除逛街外的所有体力运动。而且还有一次，和他们去狐尾山，半山腰上突然觉得头晕，把他们着实吓了一大跳，所以他们也不爱拉我去爬山了。只好选择了个折中的方案，去鼓浪屿走走。

路上人好多，1点多想先去吃完PIZZA再过渡，自以为过了用餐高峰，却意外得知还要再等60-85分钟。晕死，撕了等位牌，决定去鼓浪屿吃鱼丸。坐船的人也很多，大多是外地的游客，随着人潮终于挤上了岛。直奔龙头路183号的鱼丸店，然后再直奔旁边小路上的北仔饼摊，然后再直奔叶氏麻糍。其实这个过程大概只有我自己乐在其中，老爸老妈只是很无奈的跟着我，搞不懂小时候什么都不爱吃的女儿，怎么现在对路边的小吃那么有兴趣。终于感觉有点饱了，开始沿路逛过去。看看路边的老别墅老民居，在海边拍拍照，去皓月园、菽庄花园晃晃，很快也就3点多了。本来还打算去日光岩的，但发现大家都有点累了，于是决定打道回府。

回到厦门，决定去莱雅买昨天和老妈都一致觉得很适合老爸的那条裤子。恩，很不错，老爸是瘦了点，不过人还是挺帅的。然后怂恿老爸又买了张新贵卡。呵呵~赚到了~

从莱雅出来觉得好累啊~开始考虑晚饭问题。对面的PIZZA HUT又开始排队了，我的天~才刚过5点也。决定去吃小眼镜。呵呵，还好还有位置，赶紧点菜，老妈的速度真快。等我们的第一盘菜上来以后就开始有人在外面等位了。小眼镜MS在厦门是很有名的排挡了，不过，说实话，我并不喜欢什么酱油水之类的。不过算了，不就是陪老爸老妈吗，他们喜欢就好了。

吃完饭出来才发现路边也已经排了一溜的桌子，而且好多桌子都还没上菜，桌边的人坐在寒风中，而且还有很多人站着等位。突然觉得自己好幸福哦，早早就吃饱了。

 

到家以后，发现才7点多，真早！决定写写2007年的第一篇日志，其实好象也没什么特别的，就是记记今天的流水帐吧。毕竟是一年的新开始，得留着纪念什么的。

 

突然想起晚上同学聚会，不知道ZR去了没有，好久没看到她了，恩，还是有点想念的。不过，估计我和HY都没去，她应该也去了吧。

 

明天是爷爷生日，也许该去去爷爷家了，至少也该打个电话什么的，老人家过个生日，确实该高兴高兴。

 

累死，今天还是早点睡觉好了。明天居然就要上班了，我好恨啊~